Originally published in 2019
Throughout my lifetime, most of which has been in a married state, I’ve always known that things would be OK no matter the circumstances. I don’t know why I knew or know this; except I call it having faith. Faith to me is the absence of fear and believing that something greater is at work in the universe working on my behalf if I just believe, so I do, and things always work out. Like the time, we owed annual taxes to the tune of 3k and due to other expenses, we literally did not have the money, but then out of nowhere, before tax deadline, boom it manifested in the form of a gift. Or when our dog, Hunter was diagnosed with cancer and he was only 3. Like a child, you don’t just discard them because they are sick. But Chemo in a pet is just as pricey as a human, but I had faith that it would work itself out, and it did. We did lose Hunter after a hard-fought battle, but he was worth every hard fought penny earned to pay for his chemo.
It is my belief that when things don’t work out, it’s because we don’t believe in ourselves or believe that we ‘deserve’ what we’ve set our mind to and that message is what is sent into the universe instead of what we really want. Oh, I’m guilty of not taking leaps of faith too, trust me on that, but whenever, it’s come to anything that has been the most important in my life I took the leap and every single time things worked out.
My trick is to picture what I want and I make it happen. It doesn’t always happen in the exact way I imagine, or on my timeline, but some form always does and, in the end, always better than I’d imagined. Little tidbit — We don’t always know what’s best for us, (WHAT!!!! how can that be!) but universal karma does. If we become arrogant and unwilling to bend to where life wants to take us, then you will likely miss out on so many things that you imagine for yourself and all because you didn’t believe that they’d happen the way they were supposed to and in the time they were supposed to.
I lost my job in May of 2018, it was completely unexpected. A job I had previously loved – it all changed within a few months when a few new folks in management came on board that were self-serving and self-centered. I cared about the greater customer, they cared about who they could tear down, or make fun of or bitch about. In the end I came to resent them and I’m sure they didn’t like me either. The saddest part about that tale, is that there’s very few people I can say that I truly ‘dislike.’ The nonsense took it’s toll and I think in the end I manifested the job going away (yep, I sure did).
In the end, everything is a journey, and I knew I’d find another job. Everything has a lesson in it, mine I think was tolerance (I’m still working on that), but it did solidify to me who I won’t be, or who I won’t work for and that my principles matter.
I did find another job, it too has its challenges but if we never face a challenge and take that leap of faith that it will be OK, we’ll never move forward. Don’t get me wrong, faith falters, but it’s up to me to eliminate the fear and believe in myself. Not an easy task I know, but one worth pursuing.
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